fragments of a memory

you often try to look back not in fear, but with the strength to face whats behind you. sometimes its a memory of something you regret. people forget that if something wrong you did never happened, everything else would be differnet. you may think nothing good has come or will come, but you have to cry to feel better, you have to scream to let it go, and its always darkest before the dawn. sometimes you might wish you didnt hurt someone, but maybe if you apologize your friendship will be stronger than it ever could without revealing how much you need that person in your apology. maybe you regret breaking up with a boyfriend or girlfriend, but think you would never have met someone else in your life, or maybe that person will turn out to be not at the person you wanted. looks can be decieving, and we all are the same basic layout. its how were formatted and how bold our unique fonts are. we cant even control who we are, or what we want, we just chose what we do, and if we'll get it. you could be the most beautiful shade of turcoiquse with brillant streaks of indigo, but there will always be someone who hates the color blue.