love, pain, and angry Japanese samurai woman

love doesnt give you warnings unless its too far away for you to remember them when it comes. it tricks us into seeing things that arent there, and takes are our minds and gives us a different perspective, that you control if its for the better or the worse.

pain is only there if your expected comfort, no one an expect to be comforted forever, if you make yourself so that no one on the outside can hurt you, you may end up hurting yourself.

a pearl face arises 

moonlight gleaming off her sword

waiting for revenge

the Ellen show

hands down, the best talk show ever. ellen is an optimistic, hilarious character. she is extremly generous and always entertaining to watch. after watching about four episodes back to back on a saturday night and being just as satisfied as i would if i had spent it with a friend, i knew i had to blog about it. even if i did spend it with a friend, i would probably make them watch it with me ;)
P.S. Mrs. Rosenbaum! i was reading your page on the school website and read you have another grandchild! i hope Kyler grows up to look to you for inspiration like i do : )

questions, answers, spirits?

if a tree falls and no one is there to hear it does it make a sound? my theory says yes it does make a sound, because if you scream and no one is there to hear you does it matter, for your sake, yes. today i woke up in the dark in my room while alone in my house. i couldnt remember how i fell asleep or if i new why no one was here. it was dark with alone scared me. i turned on a light, and it turned off by itself. evantually my famliy came homme from an extended walk to the park. when im alone in my house i feel unsafe. like something is watching me, ive begun to question the reality of spirits, leaving the final question, why would they even be here. well lucky for you fear=inspiration

black lace hides my face as i search for a flame
ice glistens in the reflection of my eyes
beneath the ice you can see a fire glowing brighter and brighter
until its extisnguished by the dark figure behind me

pain

even though it is sickening to say so, everyone craves pain every once in a while. everyone needs pain once in a while, to remind yourself your human. whether its emotional or physical, you need it. to know that your not perfect, but neither is anyone else. sometimes pain lasts too long though, you want to sleep and never wake up. but to feel nothing forever is a torment no one could ever endure as long as they were sane. have the common sense to know pain never ends, but neither does it last

sorry

im  sorry that im not perfect.
im sorry i dont do everything right.
im sorry that im human.
im also sorry that some people expect me to apologize for these things

Adele

Adele. This women has been the biggest inspiration to me and thousands of other people in the world with her truthful lyrics and beautiful majestic voice. She is beyond description with words. she herself is like a song, like life. Truthful, sudden, unexpected, and something everyone has. Everyone has a song, it depends what song you are that helps make out what your life is like. So set fire to the rain;)!

Shattered spirits

Beyond angry. That past nerve burned Out last year. Tears because the entire situation is so sad. Already been pushed over the edge of sanity. Too much knowledge you understand everything more than anyone else but no one else seems to understands why. And they don't know when to stop, when it's enough. In their eyes, it's no harm. But n your eyes it's vile and cruel how they treat you. And must be stopped. Because only when they stop will they see what they've done.